How life works out. I have found the most amazing person in a partner; He literally was made for me. There aren't many people (men) who can handle my personality. I'm not going to toot my own horn by saying all these great things about myself so instead, the bad things. I am loud, annoying, impulsive, indecisive, selfish, stubborn, I have a temper, I'm a bit OCD, among other things. I do have good things too but that isn't the focus today. Keith is the one person who I truly feel loves me throughout.
I am trying to be better for our son. I don't want to bicker in front of him because I want him to see that I love and respect his father. And I do.
I am happy 99.9% of the time but I have my lash out moments. They are much fewer and further between than they used to be. Most of the time it is due to a lack of communication (usually on my end) and I get frustrated. I'm working on it.
Now, Keith is NOT perfect...not by a long shot. Neither am I (obviously). There aren't a lot of girls that would have stuck it out through the things we've been through. Keith was 28 when we met and I was 23. As far as 'adult growing up' goes...we kind of did that together. What we have has grown from 2 young kids partying out on the town, drinking, staying up late, going out every night... to sitting at home, watching DVR shows, playing board games, drinking wine, vacationing in st. augustine, making babies, staying in at night to keep B-boy on a schedule, holding hands::::: a beautiful love.
If I had gotten the things I'd hoped and prayed for so many years ago.... Bryce wouldn't be here. Maybe I was destined to be here? Maybe my 'other life' would have been my destiny too? Maybe I'd be just as happy? I don't know...but I do know that I am thankful for what I have today....and hopeful for the future to come.